Taking a break from all the struggles.

This post is going to take a break from the struggles of being a writer to just a general life struggle. One that I think a lot of people have some kind of version of, but maybe are like me and have lived in silence. Well no longer! 

I wanted to share my story with you, so maybe some understanding for other people in my type of situation can maybe be had. There is so much misunderstanding and hatred in the world, it saddens me to look at the news sometimes. I can't bare to see that someone else has taken their own life, or had their life taken due to the ignorance of another person. Instead I decide to keep myself to myself and stay silent because I think that people don't care about what I have to say, or what I think. Now though, I don't have to worry because I am a writer and whether people care or not, I am going to write. 

There have been a few hiccups in my life. Some that I have got over. Some that are an ongoing struggle, but something that I have to keep telling myself is, it's okay. 

It's okay to have a bad day. 

It's okay that you can't get up, you will be able to tomorrow. 

I have a condition, Fibromyalgia. It is not as severe as some cases, there is also a chance that it could get worse. For now though, I have days when I am unable to move, days when I can't feel body parts, pain that creeps up in every part of my body that I have to bite my tongue and live with. When I was diagnosed about a year ago I didn't fully understand the effect it would have. In this last year though it has robbed me of occasions, it takes days away from me where I am just trying to make it through the hours. There have been positives though, I have learnt how to drive, I have learnt how to handle the pain on most days, and I have an amazing support system who helps me to survive those days when all you want to do is cry and sleep. 

Writing with this condition can be difficult. I could use dictation software but I struggle to write this way. Instead I may have to wear a wrist brace, or I just can't write at all because I can't move my fingers or my hand. Either way there have been many occasions this last year that I have had ideas or wanted to write, and because of this condition I can't. 

Now I know that doesn't sound like a big deal, I know that other people have their life a lot worse. But you know what, it's still okay to feel bad about your own situation sometimes. Just because someone you love has it worse, doesn't diminish what is happening in your life. 

For all those dark days, there will be twice as many light days. 

For all those times that you miss something, there will be many more that will make you forget about those days. 

And remember, it's okay. Whether your issues are medical, mental, or physical, it will be okay. 

Keep struggling - it will be worth it in the end. 

Kay x